We started something in here but then stopped. Thats fairly normal for me. I've got about four drafts from various times that i started and just never published because they were whiny or stupid or just not interesting. Not to say that anything i put in here is interesting even a little bit. Maybe what I'll do is just keep something like this up and running most of the day so I can just pop thoughts into here as i think them. No real plans or projects today or this week, except maybe breaking Peak with the dudes on saturday and fixing Boops' computer. Her motherboard died in one of our most recent power outages, from what I can tell. Or the microswitch on the power button isnt working, but thats so stupid rare i just bought the replacement mobo and it got here yesterday. I was too tired to do anything with it and she's got a replacement to use for the meantime, but thats the computer roskadj runs on, i'll need that back before tomorrow night. 

    There are a few things I'd really like to automate, but none so much that I want to put the work in to do it. There was the plan to use jellyfin for a bit, but with the ubiquitousness of Plex and it's ease of use, i might just stick there. The main problem with jellyfin is having to deal with IIS and auto-renew certs and the like. It might be a fun project to get working for myself, but I highly doubt anyone else could use it in the same way. I'm actually not even sure if there is an app for consoles or smart tvs that would connect to it, even if i got it working remotely and forwarded correctly, with certs. 

     We've been getting better about planning meals. Last pay period i did not control shit as much as i should have and we ate out more often than we should have. Nothing so bad as to break out the credit cards to pay for important stuff later, but bad enough that we'll be picnicking for the next few date saturdays for sure. It's not all so bad, i like picnics and so does she. And we've been trying to make a meal plan for a while now that we can shift around and use so we dont eat the same things all the time, and we know what we need to buy for groceries a little better. So far i think it's working out fine, but time will tell after a month or so if we stick to it. I'd like to stick to it. 

 Work drags on. Hour by hour it just sort of.....happens. 

    Theres ticket I should probably pick up and work on, but really one of the things i need to remember is that im not the only person who works here. As my boss likes to remind me the other guys can do some work for a change. I know im an over-achiever when it comes to my jobs, and i put too much into them, and i can't leave things alone until they are correct.  I cant help it, its just how i am with working. I've needed a job since i was about 16 and couldnt live without a job since i was about 18 and had my son. He's grown now so maybe i ought to get over it, but i think i've just been relied on so long i actually dont know how to live any other way. 

    The idea of being without a job is terrifying. Not that Im anywhere near losing my job or anything, but just the idea of having more than a few days off in a row scares me. Maybe in that case its not so bad that my generation really wont be retiring, since i can just happily work until i die at this point. All that being said I would love to not do that, i just dont know what the adjustment period would be like. I'd probably get fat. 

     Im excited for the weekend. And for things to cool off a bit. The summer doesnt do me very well around here and maybe thats something I should work on changing. Finding a new place to live is going to be a huge pain in the ass, but I really would prefer to live some where cooler. At the rate things are warming everywhere though maybe thats not ever worth doing, since wherever we go could be just as hot by the time i can afford to do the thing. 

    We'll try again tomorrow. 

 

 

 Last night's stream went surprisingly well for changing things up a bit more than i expected. We watched a movie weirdly enough, not normally something we do on that stream. And even the movie was unhinged as a choice, which I was actually kind of happy for. 

The little fish are fun, and the jams went really well I thought. Voodoo came online and we all played peak for a bit, it was a great time. Very different for me and that was a hard thing to do. I almost played some clone hero but decided it was better to not do that. 

I hope my normal people didnt feel disenfranchised, but thats definitely something that probably did happen. Our mashup master added a bunch of things and we just sort of ended up playing marbles for a while and then watching movie. Peak was really fun though, I kind of want to play some more of that with kreegus or blossby or as many people as possible. I like big mobs of people playing games together, thats my favourite thing over all. 

 The music was great, really missed playing stuff, just for the fun of it. Got some b roll to redo because i digitized it really stupid, or i think what actually happened was my video driver updated and the older version of the encoder was used, so I can't actually export it right. I need it without the audio but also need to chunk or a couple of pieces I think I might use for myself. Wont be using the whole like, two hours, of b roll, but theres some of it I may borrow. 

Nothing new on the projects, I sort of gave up on the always-on garbo-tv thing for right now. I dont know what my goal is with that so I stopped putting a bunch of thought into it. I suppose the uploading of the Layton time VODs i've got still needs done. I'm going to get back on top of that. Its just a time-suck because it takes like 45 minutes to upload on of them, then I have to manually start the next one. Its just a drag so I havent finished it. That one wouldnt be a good one to do on stream. I wanna do projects I can do on stream because i think that would be more interesting. Or at least something. 

I wonder if I've sort of axed my own streams. Its possible. We were really consistent there for like two years and then all of a sudden i had some thing and my consistency went down the tubes. That might have been the only thing keeping people coming back, knowing i'd be at least doing something. 

Its a sunday today, which means I'll be doing some stuff. Right? I wanna race, i wanna watch a tape, I wanna jam to some records and laugh together. Theres more things to do than time to do them, with is sad but just how it works, i think, Right? 

 There was some kind of reason I started doing this again sporadically, but the reason escapes me. Maybe it was really just to talk to something that doesnt really talk back, or a place to organize thoughts, or somewhere to scream into the void. 

The weekend was bonkers and I dont feel like we've gotten anything done. I have to go back to one of my client sites next friday to redo some stuff that we did because we didnt have the right parts yet, but the time was scheduled and we had to get things moved over. Maybe I shouldnt talk about work here, but I'm not getting specific about who or what or where really, just that it was a lot of work and it's not quite done. 

 I've been playing with using JellyFin instead of Plex, but since I've got friends that watch my plex (they paid for their own remote pass) maybe I ought to keep it. Right now the only real problem is the fact that it doesnt work remotely. Yet. There is a bunch of crap I have to do before it works right, and none of it is working right. There's just not time to put into it, maybe this weekend on sunday I can poke it a little. Locally it works great, or rather mostly great. I think it uses different formats for naming and ordering files, so of course since it's sharing with Plex I can't make to many changes yet. 

 Boops has been driving on the road a little now that we've got parking mostly dialed in. She's getting a better idea of how big the car is, hoe much to turn the wheel, when to start slowing down, but we are working on all of that stuff still too. She does come into some corners kinda fast, but i guess i do too so maybe it's just me freaking out because im not the driver. When i taught her brother it was a bit like that too. Once she's done I just have to get Mrs Potato driving and everyone working and then maybe i can just lay on the ground for a month. I've always wanted to just have time to do nothing again, i dont think i've had that for more than a few days at a time (which honestly, cmon, does that even really count?) since i was about 17. Maybe thats a whiny thing to think about. But I'm 38 now so....yeah its been a little while. 

In the mornings I want to start going for a walk, even if it's just for like 10 minutes. Just to get the legs moving and the blood pumping, maybe i'll even quit drinking coffee again completely. i've gotten pretty good with it since i stopped drinking it like water a few years back. It was honestly wrecking my brain i think, but i needed to be awake, and active, and fast. That worked for a long time but i think i burned out my body, and my brain. I feel like sometimes i'm just losing my mind. Remembering things and doing more than one thing at a time, and my hearing. I wonder if i can work on any of those things. I mishear a lot of things any more and sometimes things aren't quite loud enough for me. I've avoided my earbuds for a while and turned things down at the mixing table to help a little, but it's just quieter. May be one of those things that's too little too late and it's just fucked as it is. 

 We moved RoskaDJ into the cabinet. She needs a physical box to run on or else the sound doesnt work right. I've been thinking about trimming that instance down a little, or maybe virtualizing it and seeing if it'll work that way, just to have one less computer running around here. I feel like I just add new ones all the time. Michiru (physical server) will be good to have for jellyfin, if i ever get it working right, mainly for the hardware transcoding. Maybe I will just keep both Plex and JellyFin, jelly for me for when im home and plex for those that pay for it to work. I mean they dont pay /me/ but thats besides the point. 

Streaming hasnt really been going at all. I couldnt do my normal saturday thing, nor play with the dudes on friday this week. I was going to try and do something on sunday but i was just wiped out and laid around. I want to gt back to doing something more often than once a week, but i also think i need to change up what i do on saturdays. We can play some games, or jam out, but i wanna watch a tape, or do something different, i just dont know what yet. The game night thing has been fun but we've been doing it for about a year now and i think its time for something new. Maybe if i think of something good I can do every other week or something for games like we used to, or once a money? I like that, just not every saturday. 

 We'll be back, and we'll do stuff, time just will tell on what we are doing. 

 

 Today was an absolute ass day at work, but i got to work out of the office, or my house, on site and doing something without being bothered with other stuff. It was kind of nice to work on a network migration and get to focus on it. The environment was live, but they were closed today so there wasnt someone up my ass the whole time. We didnt get done until about two hours later than we planned, and I'll have to go back in a couple of weeks but in all most of the mistakes were pretty easily fixed and most of the things that went wrong were as bad as they could have been. Of course having said that when I go back on monday it'll certainly be completely fucked. 

Time is stupid. We have to spend so much of it doing things that are worthless, but i mean most of it is generally stuff you have to do to avoid some sort of bad thing, so its sort of worth it. 

The office downstairs is a very different place than it was about a month ago. Its amazing the difference just moving a few things around can make, really feels like we opened up the room a lot. I kind of want to get a rug for down there, but at the same time i think that might be better for the winter when we move the second kotatsu back down there. It's in our room right now because we use the table part up there in the summer time.

 Organized the VHS tapes yesterday in between calls. Mostly so I didnt have to get too into anything because I knew I was going to out of the office all day today. It kind of pays to not get too tied down the day before something like that. I feel like that sort of does my coworkers a little dirty, but as we've found during our discussions during meetings, its much more helpful to NOT have to get a call from someone while you are working on something complicated, or having to explain to one of the dudes how to complete this ticket that you left half done. 

 Im rambling, mostly because my brain is fried and it sort of helps sometimes to just let it go lahS>gaiujkshf.h;v for a second. 

I think I'll poke my Tiny Aquarium game (talk about that next time) or start a new round of paperclips. 

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 We cleaned up the office/streaming area today. I've had piles of 12" records from game nights floating around for weeks because I've just not wanted to spend the time to  put them away. Also there was the issue of the lack of space to put away the 7" singles, as I'd filled the two collapsible crates I'd found almost to the brink. 

 Solved the first one by convincing Mrs Potato that I needed someone around to make sure I didnt get distracted by messing with non-cleaning related things while I put things away. Also mostly I just needed someone around to talk to while i worked on getting things back in order. We re-arranged a little down there too and it opened the space up quite a bit. Really nice how that can make a room feel better. 

The second problem was solved with an amazon box that I found that fit exactly the width i needed, so the 45's got shifted a little and all the loose ones put away. That was satisfying. I'm glad that the most recently played ones get piled up and not put right back the same week, but I do need to have some kind of system to put things away once a week from the jams weeks previous so we both dont play the same thing too often and also dont let the piles get so large it takes hours to put them all away. 30 minutes on average should be the most i'd need to spend. I'll have to get another box/crate/holder thing for the "to process" and the "to process but not yet" piles. That doesnt include the "Just bought these, put them in discogs, clean them, and find their homes" pile.  

 Mr Gus got his space cleaned up a little. Mrs Potato wants to decorate down there and make it a nice space for him, and I think thats lovely but also fear that she'll put a bunch of work into something and he, being a cat, will just lay somewhere else. I think he may eventually warm up to it but he avoided his pillow for weeks after i washed it, so im not holding my breath. 

 I'm frustrated that I've done all this cleaning mostly to find my USB-C external capture card and it's been so far elusive. I know for a fact that I picked it up from Kreggus, and put it in my bag, or my car, or my pocket, and then lord only knows what "safe place" i stuck it in. I've torn up the space downstairs an my tech pile in the server room, and the closets, and my bag, and trunk, and everywhere i can think of and it's making me want to scream and pull my hair out. 

Game nights have been going really nicely. Just about every week the day beforehand i think "Maybe i should do something different, switch things up a bit." Then end up doing pretty much the same thing every week. I dont know, i like the party, i like the vibe and the people and the whole jam, but i worry it might get stale, or boring. People cycle in and out, and i think thats a good, healthy thing. Anyone thats played and left and then come back is always welcome, not naming names. But i think I focus sometimes too much on including as many people as possible, or worry about it maybe. There are some things i think that we could pull off with a group of four, rotating out members, that we can't do when there's 6-10 of us. I like and want the big groups though, that is so much fun. 

The fact that people keep coming back, and keep having fun, is the biggest bonus of the whole thing. I like playing games, and im glad that the only time i really have during the week to focus on playing stuff, I get to have a party with all my friends, every week.  If you had only so much time, is that such a bad way to use it?

I'm rambling, but thats the point of this thing. Make me think things out more, even if they are non-consequential. This is my brain space, it's allowed to be a little unhinged. 

I want to make some new video loops on the hi8 camera. We've got a couple loops i could use from graveyards we've visited recently, but i ahve to rip and convert it all.