Working n the office kind of has a new flavour to it now, and I cant say i like it much. I miss my boy, but thats been beat to death so i'm going to have to move past it. We are training a new guy this week, which is great because it means in like six months it'll be really helpful, but in that time we'll have six times more volume and it wont really help that much, but we'd be dead without him. I like the guy, he seems fine and not like a lazy person. We have enough of those. 

 Life without Mr Gus down in the office has been slow and quiet and lonely. Honestly i swear i hear him all the time, but it's just my brain filling in the silence I think. Miss Luna does come downstairs and hangs out with me sometimes, but mostly just because she wants to go outside out the back door. I'd want that too, and i do like going out there with her, she just does the same thing Gus used to do though, eats grass and then comes inside and throws it up. I dont know why cats like to do that. Toby never did and neither did Miss Steve. I think once I'm done done with cats i wont think about them quite so much, but i loved them all and i miss the ones that arent here. 

 Work has helped a little bit in that Ive got something else to think about. Streaming last weekend was different, but we all had a good time and i didnt have to talk about it. I did bring him uup once on sunday though while we were listening to music, but only to explain the incense thing i've been doing, since it so happened i was burning the last one for mr gus while on stream, it only seemed right to include everyone. I do think good thoughts for him and wish him a peaceful rest when i do that. i really do want him to be safe and sound and calm somewhere and i know he isnt in pain any more, thats the important thing i guess. I just miss him a lot. 

Wow need to move on. No new projects right now. The outside fire streams have been improved and i think i'll run with those some times int he evenings just to balance things out if i need to stream but cant think of what to stream. I dont think it'll work in the winter time, and I might change the cameras around a little, instead of trying to get the whole picture into the camcorder, just use that for the fire or something. Point the webcam at my head and call it good. Yea there'll be some time that im not on the screen, but no one cares about that anyway, i dont HAVE to be on the screen, i just am so it's more personable. I could just do the vtube thing but its more work than just having my real face on it. Plus im not really worried about someone getting to me in person. Not really anyway. 

I need to do this a little today, if only to try and get myself back int he habit of letting my brain just go for a while when ive got a few minutes. Good luck out there yall.